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| We are really starting to fill out these maternity clothes! |
We're 18 weeks today! Baby is getting bigger (much, much bigger) and stronger. I'm still waiting ever-so-patiently for that first strong kick, but I have felt increasing movement this week. It's a great comfort and I'm glad I don't have to use the doppler as often. Baby's hair and eyelashes should be growing in this week! It's probably too early to blame the heartburn on hair growth, but I have horrible heartburn this week so maybe ;) I have had some continuing spotting this week, but it was never severe enough to go back to the doctor. I'm glad I have more of an understanding where the spotting is coming from, and when I slow down and rest the bleeding slows down too. Only 2 more weeks until we get to see the specialist again. That will be our 20 week ultrasound where they will check EVERYTHING in great detail. They will check all her organs and the cord for any deformities and also see where the placenta is now. I think we will have a better understanding of what kind of monitoring we will need for placenta previa after that ultrasound. My fingers are crossed that it will show a perfect healthy little girl and show improvement in placenta placement.
It hit me this week how much love and support I have been surrounded by constantly! I have had countless numbers of people reach out to us just to see how we're doing. I know that we are included in so many daily prayers. I feel like everyone I know is thankful for this miracle baby, and everyone is hoping with us that she will make a safe and healthy entrance into this world. It is such a humbling experience to be so loved and so cared about. I feel really blessed. What a fantastic way for her to start her life- born into much love from every direction!
One such example was this week when the Pack N Play from my registry just showed up on my front porch. My best friend bought it for me just because. I was so excited and emotional! It's hard to believe we will really need baby supplies again. My registry is still a work in progress so if anyone wants to check it out and review any of the products you've loved/hated or want to suggest things to add- that would be great! (Link below)
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| Best surprise ever! |
I have been struggling this week with some of the less fun sides of pregnancy. I've felt a severe lack of energy this week and a fresh wave of depression. I hate admitting that even when a miracle is happening. I'm so prone to depression anyway- and I have to say I'm proud of myself for doing as well as I am without any medication anyway. I'm bound to have bad weeks where I'm more emotional and dead tired. I don't think I would feel so bad about it if my 4 year old wasn't affected by the days where all I feel like I can do is lay in my bed. I try to do what I can with him to keep him entertained and away from the TV. I'm so excited (for his sake) for kindergarten to start in a month. I'm also emotional about it because the idea of my baby being gone from 8-3 five days a a week is a little too much for me right now.
I think some of the emotional difficulties stem from the fact that I've struggled with pain management this week. It's all related. My SI joint has continued to worsen. Up to this point, the slipping and moving was just on my right side- this week the hypermobility has spread to both sides. It makes it extremely difficult to sit up from laying down, stand from sitting, bend over slightly, or walk. The bones will suddenly slip and grind. Sometimes my hip or leg will buckle and give out completely. Kevin wants me to "go down the stairs on my bum when I'm home alone." When the bones slip it usually makes me scream out in pain and now I have no "good side" to lean on to help me find relief. It seems no matter the direction I move the pain just spreads. Kevin is shocked by how much my bones are moving. He said he's never had a patient in the clinic who is so unstable while moving. With me being so high-risk and trying not to cause more bleeding with movement and pressure, he doesn't want to do any manipulations until after baby comes. I'm sure if I talked to my OB they would either send me to a chiropractor or PT and I just don't feel safe about it. Not when I can bleed just from sitting down wrong. I had lots of chriopractor adjustments when I was pregnant with Jack and I was no where near this bad. At this point my plan is to just suffer through it...and try to move slowly and symmetrically at all times. It's just not worth the risk at this point. Fortunately it is always at its worst at night when I have help at home. It's a small price to pay for a healthy girl though- I'll take it!
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| Shout out to Jack for being my photographer this week! Haha! He's so cute |
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